dreams are scary!

After working all night I went to bed and had the scariest dream... I dreamt that I went in for my next ob check up and he put the doppler to my stomach and we heard a lot of confusion. So he sent me over to the ultrasound lady and she found 2 babies. ugghhh. So then the doctor and I were talking and he said well that would explain why you are so big for 17 weeks and why you are still feeling sick, the baby must have produced another baby. He was all excited because it was such a medical miracle and I was not so excited.
It is kind of funny how dreams can scare me but then I realized it must scare the IF even more. But the good news is I have had many ultrasounds already and nothing abnormal found.

15 week update

   Well I'm now 15 weeks and not much has changed. I am still without an appetite and feeling tired and nauseous. I have been taking some medicine to help with the nausea but it has other side effects that aren't very pleasent. But I have been eating a bit more, although it is very forced on my end. I continue to struggle with eating but hoping any day now it will get better. It's so different because my kids were never like this.
   About 4-5 days ago I started to feel what I think is the baby moving. That was really exciting. It's not the same as feeling my own move but it was more exciting for the IF. I was at work and couldn't wait to tell him. But it was 3am and knew I didn't want to disturb him at such an hour. I text him when I got out of work and he was super excited. It just feels like gas bubbles right now and as the baby grows I am so excited for the IF to be able to share in this feeling.
   On Friday night I went to a party with lots of my girlfriends to be read by a psychic. I went in feeling pretty unsure of what he would tell me and what he could tell about me. He had no previous information about me or my current situation. I was shocked at the information he was telling me. Not sure that I am a believer yet but it was pretty neat. The first thing he says to me is "I see babies around you". I was sitting down in a big comfy chair with a loose fitting dress on so there was no way to see my little baby bump. Then he tells me that I will have 5 children total. (not sure if that includes the miscarriage or not but hey maybe I'm meant to do this again someday). Then he tells me not to worry because the baby is super healthy, which is such a relief because we haven't received any results from the early screening testing yet but hey, no news is good news to me. And also being a NICU RN I was constantly worrying with my kids that some freak genetic thing would occur and it has not changed even though this is not mine. Then he carries on and asks me if I want to know what it is and I say yes and he says it's A GIRL! Which doesn't really surprise me because I had a dream a long time ago that it's a girl. He carried on about my personality and things to happen in my life in the future and most of it was right on. Some things he was off a bit but he described my husband to a T, and he wasn't there and had never met me. So I guess at my 20 week ultrasound we will get to see if he is right. Either way as long as the baby is healthy like he said I will be happy.

ugghhhh not again!

I thought that as you enter the 2nd trimester things were suppose to get better. Nausea was suppose to lessen, vomiting was suppose to disappear and the extreme tiredness would fade... well maybe I'm not in far enough because I am more nauseous, vomiting more often and so tired I can barely keep my eyes open at times.  I was started on Zofran, a medication to help with the nausea, yesterday and the does seem to help me have some kind of interest in eating but man once that stuff wears off... I am just forcing myself to eat and most of the time it comes right back up. I think that is why I am so so tired too. If I am not processing enough food then my body can't take advantage of all the goods. So I have also started drinking protein shakes that the OB recommended. They seem to help a bit but I am hopeful.
Baby and I had a talk tonight. I told he/she that if baby is nice to me I will promise to feed it whatever it wants whenever it wants. And I will promise to take such great care of he/she until Daddy takes over. So lets hope that he/she was listening.

13 weeks and out of the miscarriage zone!

I went to the OB's today and heard two super duper great things. First I heard the baby's heartbeat from the Doppler machine, a basic microphone that is applied directly to my stomach, and it was strong and steady! And second I heard the Dr. tell me "you are out of the miscarriage zone!" So holy moly I'm having a baby!

Today is the first day of the second trimester and supposedly you start to feel better at this point but today and the last few have been rough ones. I am super duper nauseous. No vomiting but I can't eat anything. The doctor wasn't too concerned and neither am I, I totally remember this stage, and I hope it ends soon. I also have been so tired the last couple of days that I really could sit on the couch and do nothing all day if my kids and life allowed it. But they don't.

I took this video for the IF's so I thought it would be fun to share. Its kind of hard to hear but listen close and towards the end you hear the strong heartbeat!

12 weeks and med free!

The pics are hard to see but the top one is the baby waving at us, and the bottom one is baby chillin in my uterus. I went in today for my early screening ultrasound and blood work and baby looked great. Measuring a day ahead and a strong heart rate of 153. It is such an awesome relief everytime I get to catch a sneak peak at this angel. And to top it all off I am offically weaned off all medication!