I am now waiting and will continue waiting till next monday afternoon. On friday afternoon we transfered two good looking embryos into my spongey uterus. I had two full days of bed rest, which I actually enjoyed. And now I have resumed my life and wait for the embryos to attach.
This is quite the emotional ride. When I had started this project... over a year ago now, I assumed that the emotional part would be at the baby's birth. I was sure I was strong enough to hand these great people their baby without a problem, and I continue to believe that. What I didn't realize was the emotions that I would feel prior to even getting pregnant. The first transfer I was naiive. I thought well why won't it work, I've never had problems getting pregnant. Which I have learned has absolutely nothing to do with getting pregnant via IVF. The second transfer I was sure that it would work because it had worked the first time. I was so upset when I heard the negative result and so hurt that these people couldn't yet bring a baby into this world when they so desired. Now after this transfer I am terrified. Before I was so anxiously awaiting my lab results and couldn't help taking home pregnancy test and this time I am not taking a home test and not counting the days till the results. I just want them to be positive so bad but I know that worrying and stressing doesnt change anything. So I am just gonna relax, live my life and keep HOPE!
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