When I first chose to embark on this journey I really didn't know what I was in for. I knew how amazing it would be to end up with this nice healthy baby for F and D. And I knew how awesome it would be to help them become a family. And I knew all the comes with pregnancy and what not. What I didn't know was exactly how scientific it would be to get me pregnant. Dave and I have never had to worry about things like this. We have always had the other worry that oh no please don't let us be pregnant again! So when I got deeper into this adventure I was amazed how precise and scientific this whole process is.
I know that I told you that I was started on meds a while ago and it has been going well. I have been very religious with the meds because there were so many I didn't want to mess anything up. They give you a schedule of what to take when and it is like a map to getting pregnant. It looks overwhelming but it must work so I carry that schedule with me everyday and look at it numerous times a day. I cross off the meds as I take them and count down the days till the transfer. I get excited everyday that passes knowing that we are one day closer to getting F and D a baby, or two!
Also on the calendar are multiple blood draws, ultrasounds and other misc. dotor appointments at the clinic. Like Monday I had a blood draw to test drug levels and today I had an ultrasound to see the results of one of the injections that I take. Unfortunately the result was less that what they hoped and I was so bummed. They were doing measurements in my uterus and need to know numbers down to the mm. Crazy huh? I know that I have been religious with the meds and the schedule, just like the clinic said. And I know that the tech told me it's nothing that I have done it's just my body but I can't help feeling like a failure. And if you know me, you know that I HATE to fail at things!! So now I just wait. The clinic is going to talk to F and D and see what the next move is. I really don't want this to delay the transfer but I do know that I want the best chances for this baby for F and D. So if the transfer needs to wait... then wait I will.
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