Got the call yesterday afternoon that my pregnancy labs were negative. That means not pregnant. No success with this transfer. I was to say the least so upset. I wanted it so bad this time. And everything looked better than last time. My blood levels were within normal, my lining was thicker, I was on less medication, the embryos looked great, and still no success. I asked what I did wrong and /or what I could have done differently and they answered nothing. It all comes down to the odds that we were given, 50/50.
The big question is what's next? Well it's all kind of up in the air right now. I stopped all my meds today and now just let hormones relax and once I have a cycle we can go again... that is if the IF's want to. I know that there are more embryo's to thaw so now it is up to them. I have a feeling that we will try again and I hope it will be asap.
Third times a charm!
Saturday, February 18, 2012
Monday, February 13, 2012
Now...Just waiting!
Well four days ago I was implanted with two healthy looking blastocysts. I really am not sure too much on the terminology but the clinic only had to thaw two embryos and they were really happy with the quality of them. I had such a mix of emotions the days prior to transfer but the night before transfer and the day of I was just filled with positive thoughts, hope, and excitement.
Transfer went smooth and I really enjoyed my 2 days after resting and relaxing. I watched lots of movies and TV and read a book or two. My husband and kids spoiled me just like the last time we went through this. I am now just trying to stay positive and really just wait. We will be getting labwork taken on Wed and Friday with results coming back to us late Friday evening. I am really hoping this time will be it.
I have some friends and family asking how I feel and to that I answer, fine! I have been more tired than usual, so we are hoping that is a good sign. I have decided, along with my IF, that we aren't gonna take home pregnancy tests this time prior to the lab results. I know that it isn't going to change results either way but we are just gonna let the labwork speak. Although I do have to admit I am very anxious to hear what the labwork says.
Transfer went smooth and I really enjoyed my 2 days after resting and relaxing. I watched lots of movies and TV and read a book or two. My husband and kids spoiled me just like the last time we went through this. I am now just trying to stay positive and really just wait. We will be getting labwork taken on Wed and Friday with results coming back to us late Friday evening. I am really hoping this time will be it.
I have some friends and family asking how I feel and to that I answer, fine! I have been more tired than usual, so we are hoping that is a good sign. I have decided, along with my IF, that we aren't gonna take home pregnancy tests this time prior to the lab results. I know that it isn't going to change results either way but we are just gonna let the labwork speak. Although I do have to admit I am very anxious to hear what the labwork says.
Monday, January 30, 2012
it's a go!
I went in today for a lining check and another weekly blood draw and IT'S A GO! My lining was at 8... they like 6-8. Last time we struggled to get it to 6.5-7. This time it is way easier for my body. My blood levels have been so good that I am not on one additional med to help thicken my lining this time. I am so super happy about that because that med was nasty to my body. So as of now I start my big mama shots and pre transfer meds on saturday and don't need to go back to the clinic till transfer day!! Nothing holding us back from a transfer on Feb 9th... that's 10 days (but who's counting!)
Sunday, January 22, 2012
back on the wagon
I am back on the wagon... the medication wagon that is. I never thought that I would be excited to stab my booty with a 1 1/2 inch long needle but I am. I am that excited because I know that means we are getting closer to transfer day. I had a baseline ultrasound on Thursday and my lining and uterus look as they should and started Estradaol shots on Fridays and Tuesdays to help plump up my uterus. I continue to get accupuncture once a week and I am feeling very positive about this time around.
18 days and counting till transfer!
18 days and counting till transfer!
Thursday, January 5, 2012
We have a plan!
Yes, we finally have a plan. No more up in the air waiting. When I went in for my last lab draw I got the call that the results were negative!! That is exactly what we needed. Then the confusion started. One person said one timeline, another said something totally different and so on and so forth. But it doesn't matter now because I was able to get into see the doctor today and she gave a go ahead. All parts of my uterus are looking good and healed and ready to get pregnant again.
I received my calendars for this month and next that detail all the med stop and start dates and lab draws and ultrasounds. I made all my appointments through Feb. so full force ahead... and I am excited again!
So now the plan looks like this: meds, meds, acupuncture, and more meds to prep my body for another transfer of two healthy embryos. To which is planned for Feb. 9th. So positive thoughts and wishes are welcome!
I received my calendars for this month and next that detail all the med stop and start dates and lab draws and ultrasounds. I made all my appointments through Feb. so full force ahead... and I am excited again!
So now the plan looks like this: meds, meds, acupuncture, and more meds to prep my body for another transfer of two healthy embryos. To which is planned for Feb. 9th. So positive thoughts and wishes are welcome!
Sunday, December 18, 2011
Lower,,, and lower... and almost there
It has been about 45 days since we miscarried and about 30 days since I posted anything and really not much has changed. We continue to wait for my hormone levels to return to zero. I continue to get my blood drawn every two weeks and I continue to hope to hear that day that the number is zero. I continue to not hear that but we are getting close.
One week after miscarrying my number was 972, two weeks after that my number was down to 61 and two weeks after that my number was down to 5 and now we wait two more weeks to hopefully hear we are clear to go. Not that I am sure what that would exactly mean... I have heard a few different options for what is to be next in our journey but for now we know that we need to drop that number to zero to move on.
In hopes of moving the number quicker I have started acupuncture. The other surrogates in my support group and some friends of mine swear by it. There have been studies to show that acupuncture helps increase blood flow to the uterus and increase fertility. I have heard numerous stories about failed attempts and then following acupuncture a positive outcome...a healthy baby or two. The acupuncturist swears that it will help renew and refresh me and also prep my body for the pending transfer and upcoming pregnancy. I have been two times and it is a totally new experience for me. It is almost like he is talking a different language to me. I've had 13 needles carefully and specifically placed each session along with a heat lamp over my abdomen to work it's magic. The acupuncturist recommends one session per week up till transfer but with the holidays I won't be back till after the new year. I enjoy the sessions and do feel that it gives me more energy and positivity in this journey and everyday.
The intended father gave me the best advice for now... "let's just enjoy the holidays and look forward to January." And that is exactly what I intend to do.
Happy Holidays
One week after miscarrying my number was 972, two weeks after that my number was down to 61 and two weeks after that my number was down to 5 and now we wait two more weeks to hopefully hear we are clear to go. Not that I am sure what that would exactly mean... I have heard a few different options for what is to be next in our journey but for now we know that we need to drop that number to zero to move on.
In hopes of moving the number quicker I have started acupuncture. The other surrogates in my support group and some friends of mine swear by it. There have been studies to show that acupuncture helps increase blood flow to the uterus and increase fertility. I have heard numerous stories about failed attempts and then following acupuncture a positive outcome...a healthy baby or two. The acupuncturist swears that it will help renew and refresh me and also prep my body for the pending transfer and upcoming pregnancy. I have been two times and it is a totally new experience for me. It is almost like he is talking a different language to me. I've had 13 needles carefully and specifically placed each session along with a heat lamp over my abdomen to work it's magic. The acupuncturist recommends one session per week up till transfer but with the holidays I won't be back till after the new year. I enjoy the sessions and do feel that it gives me more energy and positivity in this journey and everyday.
The intended father gave me the best advice for now... "let's just enjoy the holidays and look forward to January." And that is exactly what I intend to do.
Happy Holidays
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Looking Forward
I just really wanted to say that I am ok. Many people have been checking on me and really I am doing better. There are definitely times that I struggle with the miscarriage but I know that won't help anything. So I continue looking forward.
I continue to bleed and shed the lining in my uterus, as my body attempts to return to normal. The lining that we worked so hard to build up and now we hope will quickly thin so we can move on. I went in today for lab work and to get a new plan established with the fertility clinic. My HCG hormone has dropped significantly since the last time it was checked but that was when I was approximately 5 weeks pregnant and when we wanted it to be high. Now we want it to drop. The plan is to recheck the level in 2-3 weeks and go from there. Hopefully it will be down to zero and we will be talking about a frozen transfer. I have heard that acupuncture helps lower levels after miscarriages and then increases blood flow to the uterus when doing IVF so I may just try that to help my body do what it needs to.
I continue to bleed and shed the lining in my uterus, as my body attempts to return to normal. The lining that we worked so hard to build up and now we hope will quickly thin so we can move on. I went in today for lab work and to get a new plan established with the fertility clinic. My HCG hormone has dropped significantly since the last time it was checked but that was when I was approximately 5 weeks pregnant and when we wanted it to be high. Now we want it to drop. The plan is to recheck the level in 2-3 weeks and go from there. Hopefully it will be down to zero and we will be talking about a frozen transfer. I have heard that acupuncture helps lower levels after miscarriages and then increases blood flow to the uterus when doing IVF so I may just try that to help my body do what it needs to.
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